At the beginning of the year I thought I might try to implement a few new things into my life. I’d use a daily tracker, a bit like people do in a BuJo, and keep myself on target to make these things a part of my routine.
I should never make lists like that in the middle of a school break when I have lots of time. You’d think I would have learned that by now. I had far too many things, about 10, I think. And it didn’t take until the first day of work for me to realize I was not going to be able to keep up with so many.
I dropped all but what I thought was the most important one and made a monthly tracker for it. My most important one, I felt, and still do, was getting up at 5am AND not looking at my phone when I wake up in the middle of the night.
Part of getting up at 5am was actually getting out of bed and making coffee, but not looking at my phone and not checking email. I only have Instagram for social media so that’s not really a big deal.
I did OK most days. I had put my phone on the table by my bedroom door, which seemed reasonable, until I noticed that if I got up to get a drink or to use the bathroom, I would check the time. It was to see if it was close to 5am, but it ended up being a problem because if it was 1am or 3am, I sometimes let that get to me. I moved the location to the foot of my “bed” and have found that is much better.
Most people on YouTube say to put the phone outside your room and buy another alarm for your room, or have your phone alarm go off in the other room so you have to get up and leave the bed to turn it off. First, I do not want to buy anything for this. Second, I do not want to wake my kids at 5am. Kind of makes the whole getting up early thing a moot point. This is not the first time I’ve noticed that almost every single productivity guru on YouTube is not only white and not only male and not only middle class, but also 100% childless. Take their advice with a grain of salt. 🙂
The one day that never worked out was Saturday. By Friday night, I am so exhausted I can barely make it until my usual 9pm bedtime. Saturday morning, my body just wants to rest for a while. Sometimes I’d go back to sleep until six, but I usually just lay in bed and read or played a few rounds of GardenScapes. 😀
As the month wore on, I had that very elongated anxiety episode and I’m impressed I functioned at all, so I don’t really count that as a fail. When you are trying to survive, that comes before some little routine you’re trying to set up.
I have to say it has helped a lot. Obviously it did not do anything for my PTSD, which is the promise of so many of these things, but it helped me feel a bit more organized and relaxed in the morning.
You all are probably thinking that 5am is extreme, but the kids have to be up at 6:20am so that’s the only time that works. Otherwise it’s all just rushed. By getting up at 5am I can have my coffee and maybe write for a bit before I get in the shower and get moving. I am not a natural morning person. I have been forced into it by the ludicrous demands of the 9-5 world. I would much rather be up until the wee hours and sleep until noon.
My goal is to add one small thing each month. These are things that are already on my list of things I should do each day, but I either rarely get to them, like my cup of tea in the evening, or I don’t do them completely, like a full teeth care thing. You know, brush, floss, rinse…I hope that’s all there is since that’s what I’ll be trying next month.
Ominous “dun-dun-dun,” as my son says.